But lately some insidious thoughts have been creeping in. I want to lose a bit more weight. Right now I weigh 70.5 kilos. Thats around the 155 pound mark (I have managed to lose one of the two pounds I put on recently.) I am wearing size 12 clothing and for an Australian, where the average women's size sits around the 14/16 mark that is some achievement. I feel immensely proud of what I have achieved so far. But being so close to tipping over into the 60 kilo range (albiet a 69 - haha Amy W that was just for you!!) I am suddenly harboring thoughts about what it might be like to sit in that bracket. I want to push myself a bit and lose a few more kilos and look even thinner than I do now.
See, right now, while I think I look fine I don't 'feel' thin. I see pictures of myself and while I know I look more streamlined than I have in over 20 years, I still don't think I look small. I realised just recently some of my clothes are a little baggy - and that actually gives me a kick. Stupid I know. The reason they are getting baggy is because slowly but surely I have lost another five kilos since I started maintaining. I wasn't trying, it just happened. But I really don't want to have to go out and buy another wardrobe as I've spent time and money investing in the new one I have. And I should be satisfied sitting on a size 12 (a US 8.) It's a good size to be. I can't ever imagine being a size 10 (thats a US 6.) Yet how many kilos would it take to lose to get to that size? I don't know and I'm not really interested in a size 10 dress size right now but more the way I look and feel in myself.
I have been maintaining my weight for almost a year and it hasn't been hard in the least. I haven't deprived myself of anything (I have a lot of different foods but obviously in much, much smaller portions) and I still have the occasional drink(s). I don't really exercise per se i.e. going to the gym or regular walks but I think I keep the weight steady from constantly moving. I move more than I ever have in my life. I rarely sit still.
I think my brain is doing a number on me. It has to be. These thoughts have only just started as of a few weeks ago but are getting stronger. So how do I lose these thoughts? How do we truly know we have finished with losing weight and are happy to maintain for the rest of our lives? What number is a good number?
A pic I took today in summer wear before dashing off for a swim in our pool. Is there room for improvement?
Love to all,
Cara xx
You look smokin' but in the end all that matters is how you feel! :)
ReplyDeleteI think you look great. And it is how you feel that is important, as long as you have a realistic view of who you are now. There is no need to lose anymore, but if your terribly uncomfortable with where you at.....anyway, your beautiful where your at!
ReplyDeleteAs Billy Joel says "I love you just the way you are!" But you have to do what you think is best for Cara.
ReplyDeleteWow! You look amazing! I know how you feel. Not that I am at goal yet, but I keep rethinking my goal weight. I exercise every day to the point where I am sore each morning. But, if I don't do something each day, I feel like a bum. I keep thinking I will stop obsessing about my weight when my body stops losing. Do what feels best for you.
ReplyDeleteYou look stunning! But others are right.... only you will know what the right weight/size is for you. I'm getting close to goal and starting to freak out that I will likely end up in at least an American size 6.... But I'm going to continue working out and eating right and let my body go where it's headed
ReplyDeleteOMG the legs! Wow. I don't know, getting too small will never be a concern for me! I think if you want to lose a little more, go for it. But you look fabulous right now.
ReplyDeleteYou look great! but you looked great from the get-go. It is all about how you feel.
ReplyDeleteWell you look wonderful now. Great legs! Lucky you! I know I will have the same problem when I get down to 155. My goal is 145. That is what I weighed in high school and I have my reunion coming up this summer and I would love to get down to that weight. That's 23 lbs to go. What I will look like at that weight is not what I looked like in high school that's for sure. You be the judge of what you want your body to look like. That's the beauty of this band. We can do this!
ReplyDeleteCara, you look fantastic and if you never lose another kilo you will continue to look better than most women.
ReplyDeleteIf this feeling is something you just can't shake, you can always see if you can drop a few more kilos. If it becomes too hard, if you find you're really having to deny yourself, then ease up a bit. Your body will let you know.
I think everyone is different. And only you will know when you're done. If you want to lose some more, you can certainly do it. I have no doubt. I don't think you'd be too thin but I think you look fabulous now!
ReplyDeleteWell I think you look Dashing! I can't figure out what will be a final weight for me but think it will be just under 160 (~72 kg). Maybe I need to reach the magical 69 (kg)!
ReplyDeleteIts not about what the scales say.. but how you FEEL and LOOK... Your very close to goal....
ReplyDeleteI do not know how I missed this post and that gorgeous photo!! I don't know exactly how to know when you're done. Sometimes I think I am, others I think I'd like to lose 3-4 more pounds, in addition to tightening up everything even more at the gym.
ReplyDeleteAfter a lifetime of feeling like I should be working to lose, it's a very new feeling to think that I don't have to do that any more.
Anyway, you look truly stunning. Loved the photo and have no suggestions for improvement! :) xoxoxo