The ultimate pick me up (and getting your head screwed on right..)

Once again you girls have come through for me. After my spazz out regarding my so called body image deal the other day you guys have helped enormously. Thank you so much for your kind and sweet words bolstering me when I needed it most. I have said it once and will say it again: this so called 'journey' (jeez I hate that word.. can anyone think of a better one?) of ours before, during and after lapbanding is one big mental head case. Yes, so much of it is physical. What's happening to our bodies now is huge. Well, less huge I mean..haha  We are shrinking. But so much of this is mental (or I am, thats for sure!) One day we are up in the clouds floating with the heavens, the next we are sitting in a steaming heap of poop trying to figure out exactly what it is we want.

I had mentioned several times over the course of previous posts that I was happy with whatever flaws were left over on my body from losing 80+ pounds. I still stand by that. But I found myself suddenly floundering in what I should wear, how to wear it, COULD I wear it, etc etc and thanks to a bunch of lovely bandsters such as yourself I figure now I will just wing it. So what if my body is not perfect. It wasn't perfect when I was twenty. Although I was much, much thinner I still had slightly chubby thighs and a rounded stomach and face even back then. Yes, I was more toned, yes I was young and could wear any damn thing I pleased, but getting older means you take honest stock of yourself. You no longer care what people think. Okay, you MOSTLY no longer care what people think. I think that is the approach that best fits here. Wear what makes ME comfortable and know that there is that devil on my shoulder whispering that perhaps that top doesn't look quite right and it will make me go change it lol. Thanks girls. You honestly rock. xx

This is MOTH and I on our wedding day. Look at those baby faces.

See, a round face! I was about 21 here - the shot was taken in Germany.

MOTH (at the back) myself and my father. MOTH and I were camera shopping - we were about to travel to Sweden  to MOTH's birthplace and other parts of Europe. Even when I was thin I never had super skinny arms lol.

It's been a tough week for me. Actually it's been a tough couple of weeks. Between my kid busting up his hand, my husband working psychotic hours and myself trying to get myself well after being struck down with the flu and coping with the house and work and kids myself, it's all been a bit of a Debbie Downer. Or perhaps its ME that's been the Debbie Downer. Whatever the case, I feel myself mentally readjusting again and all will be well in the world again. If I can just shake the last of this runny nose and feeling crappy.

With spring here now, I have been keeping busy. Last weekend Mason and I, with MOTH's (Man of the House) help driving to and from the soil shop carting trailer loads of veggie mix, we got our vegetable garden up and running. I have never had one before and this year we have gone all out getting it underway. Actually, make that  two gardens. My son and I went a little overboard with the seedlings and have planted just about every vegetable known to mankind. I won't be buying any from the shop for while when these little suckers start producing, thats for sure. I added a few pics to show you our toil lol. Two days of solid work later, these are the results. Tina these are for you (cos it must be that time when we start swapping garden pics again. ;)

 Remember the planter box Mason made for me a few months ago. Well, this was stuffed full of herbs and salad greens, so much so I had to do some big time cleaning out. I replanted purple basil and normal basil and we have two kinds of parsley, dandelion and some Japanese salad greens and a tomato plant and heaps of other herbs. Looks a bit sparse again but it won't be long before they start filling up the space again.

 My prize Vine Tomato plant loaded down with so many tomatoes its about to topple over lol. There are a squillion more you can't see hiding at the back. I love these tomatoes. They grow four and five on the same length of vine and deepen to a deep dark red. They are very expensive over here. Something like 6 dollars for four tomatoes usually.. so go me. I managed to grow some myself. We actually have seven tomato plants which are all fruiting now. Yayy

Garden bed one: with corn and chilli plants, two kinds of lettuce, spinach, beans, peas, carrots, onions, and lots of different stir fried veggie combos like baby spinach etc. Plus other kinds of veggies I can't think of right now.

The 2nd garden. A strawberry patch, more lettuce, onions, carrots, root veggies, spinach, watermelon and other assorted flotsum.

Flowering inside. That pink orchard only had one flower last year but then it was a baby. This year I have four. I will post a pic when they open. Oooh la la.. so pretty.

Before I go I just want to wish my oldest baby a very, very happy birthday. He turns 20 today. No longer a teen. As you can see, the apple of his parents eye(s) I love you, honey. xxx

My boy......as a toddler

And now all grown up.

Well, that's it for me.
Hope you all have a fab weekend.
See you again soon
Cara xxxx