This all kind of sucks. While I will try not to have a good old whine I do feel that my life has kind of spiraled out of control - a bit. Work is great - but ho boy, I am doing a lot of hours. I guess thats a good thing. It means I am doing my new job properly, getting great feedback and so far have proved indispensable. I get a lot of call-outs covering for girls that can't make a shift and this is on top of my own roster. I no sooner think I have some time off when I get a phone call to work someone else's shift. It also looks like I've picked up a Saturday and Sunday every 2nd weekend. Good for the pay packet, not so good if I want to socialise, which I now want to do all the time! No rest for the wicked! As I said, this is all positive but it's not leaving me much time to connect with you guys. That's the down-side.
I feel I might be losing the connection (whatever that was once upon a time) with what's going on in your lives. Ack. Nothing I can do to change that except maybe hope that things slow down a little. Today after work (yet another call-in) I am going to sit down, do a WHOLE heap of reading and post some comments. I miss you guys.. sigh.
Things are going great guns with my band. I am eating well - especially on those days when I am super busy with work. It helps keep me active and this is showing on the scale. I did pop up there for a bit weight wise (just a pound) but its already gone again. Amazing what laying off the bbq chips will do. I still seem to fill up easily - a half to three quarters of a cup does me just fine but depending on how the day is going and if head hunger comes in to play (which in truth it doesn't much any more - so yay to that!) I usually eat lightly. This Monday I have an appointment to see Dr Hill. Not sure if I'm in line for a fill. I really don't think I need one. Will let you know how that pans out whatever way I go.
You know lately, I have been wondering if I might be at the end of this losing weight caper. While I feel really, really great where I am now, something is pushing me to just forge on and get rid of this last two kilos to make it to my goal of losing 40 kilos. Will I be happy there? Don't know. Maybe I will lose that 2 kilos and then want the next two off, then the two off beyond that. Somewhere in the back of my mind I know that a weight of 70 kilos (154 pounds) would be awesome. Awesome. But you know, in hindsight, maybe it will be too low. I guess I won't know until I get there. Okay, that was telling. I just said when I get there... so maybe I haven't reached that place yet where I think I am ready to stop. Hmm. I think I have more thinking to do.
Anyway, I hope you're all fighting fit. I do think about you guys often and wondering what's happening, and what I'm missing. I will try to step up in that department and get my fat head in on the news you post. Till next time,
Cara xxx
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4 months ago
Well you haven't missed much from my life - I am just growing bigger and bigger hehehe
ReplyDeleteI think it is great that you have a full life!!! :-)
You will have to learn to say no. Although it is hard when you know someone is depending on you. I think you will know when you have got to a comfortable weight. Forget about an exact number. Have a great day!
ReplyDeleteCara I don't do well keeping up these days either. It's not time for me but mental energy I think.
ReplyDeleteI feel the same about where the goal is as you. To get to the upper level of a healthy BMI for me I need to get to 62-65kg but then I think "how will I look and feel at that weight, it sounds so skinny, will it be too much" etc etc. Like you, I don't know until I get there.
Cara, I literally have no idea how you can balance mothering four boys with a job, a marriage and running a household. I've missed seeing your posts (and comments!) but I'm amazed you aren't face first in bed, fast asleep right now.
ReplyDeleteSounds like maybe you aren't quite ready yet to call it a day on the weight loss. I wonder what your doctor will have to say about it; I remember Sally's doctor telling her that her body would know when to stop. Such an interesting concept, isn't it?
Take care, and get some rest wherever you can.
It is so cool that it is already on the 20th of May in your neck of the woods. I converted kilograms to pounds to figure out that you have lost over 80 lbs. so far. That is awesome!!! You are almost at your one year band anniversary! It truly is inspirational to read stories like yours because I'm just getting started!
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Miss you too Cara!
ReplyDeleteMake sure you make time for yourself. If that means saying no to covering shifts once in a while then do it!
Goal is a funny thing isn't it, if you're happy where you are then stick to it, don't put pressure on yourself to go lower. However, if you're not satisfied, no harm moving the goal posts if need be!
We should organise a get together, lunch, coffee, wine whatever. I'd love to catch up again. Busy the next couple weekends - but maybe mid June? Don't want to add to your busy schedule!!! Flick me an email when you get a sec and we'll sort something out.
Em :)
Missed you! Glad you are well. :)
ReplyDeleteWell, I have missed you lady! I'm glad you're busy and you sound pretty happy. I think you'll figure out you goal weight - it will just make sense at some point.
ReplyDeleteI just realized the other day that we're both coming up on our year anniversaries soon - can you believe it??
Take care!
xxxxLinda
Cara, I am so impressed with you and how many big changes you have made (and flourished with) since I've gotten to know you through your blog. BTW, not sure if you saw my note on Amy's last post, but I have to confess that I call you both "Cara" and "Dashie" in my head (as in "hmm. . let's see how Dashie's doing" when I click on the link to your blog)! :)
ReplyDeleteNo need to decide now on your final weight. I'm sure it will all equalize out in time. Anyway, I know you're swamped. Just wanted to say hello and that it was nice to hear your latest news.
Hey, big changes happening in your life, that is more exciting than what is going on in mine. Glad to hear that things are going well at work and that they are relying on you...however, you gotta find a work/life balance and perhaps not make yourself available ALL the time...I am finding that in my job at the moment...even though it's "appreciated" that I put my hand up and help out always..it's now being taken for granted (and not rewarded in any way). I am now learning to say no sometimes so they value me more? Does that make sense...Also, you don't want to burn yourself out in your new career....You are doing fab with the weight loss and you will get to your 40kg goal in no time...I think resetting goals constantly depending on how you feel within is more realistic than setting one huge "unrealistic" goal..in fact one of the doc's the other day said that my goal (set at the top of the healthy weight range) may be a little to low for me...I am not ready to "change" the goal, but it was something to think about....luv ya..
ReplyDeletewell there you are :) I know your pain (well did know it)..I seem to be on the opposite track in that I have slowed down. I vote that it is too busy when you aren't having any fun anymore and only you can decide that one.
ReplyDeleteGood job on the weightloss and eating! Those two 2 kilo will come off in a flash!
Tina
I am being a slack blogger of late too!! Sometimes life just gets in the way:) Nice to hear from you Cara and that the job is still ticking away.....frantically by the sounds of it!!
ReplyDeleteHi Cara - glad to see you are doing well! Don't stress about us - you are busy! Just keep us posted with how you are doing. You will know when you are at your 'happy' weight. My sister thought she was at hers, but 2.5 yrs. after getting her band - she just lost another 40lbs. She's now 5'4" and weighs 140. She looks fabulous and not too skinny. Best wishes!
ReplyDeleteMiss you Cara but am so glad you are enjoying work and doing well. Maybe from now on out you will just loose if you loose and dont if you dont. Happy weight is good...
ReplyDeleteP.S. Missed a little bit with me..Just found out I am pregnant OMG
I certainly miss you around these parts and notice the slow down on the comments but sometimes life dictates where our attentions go. I am fortunate to have a job where I can spend major amounts of time perusing blogs but it won't always be like this and I'll be sad when it changes. Nonetheless, the work is rewarding and worth the attention when it calls. I agree with other commenters - keep us updated and don't worry about a thing. I missed almost two weeks between a class and vacation and I noticed that the really big news was all over everyone's blogs - not just the blog of the person who had the news. You'll hear what is big. If it's quiet - then so are we. :)
ReplyDeleteHey Cara...I miss you too. I feel the same way about losing the connection and have been fighting the urge to stop blogging because I feel I can't give enough of my time to you all. This post really helped. I remember when I first returned to the workforce I took every shift offered to me and loved the challenge and the money. This year has been so much better because I just do my 2 days and my TAFe day and am more balanced with the 2 days off. I can help the kids with homework, go for coffee with them, do canteen, help in the classroom and do all the other stuff like cooking and being a wife, friend and then have some time for me. Perhaps when the buzz wears off a bit you will find that great balance for you. Being valuable in the workplace is such a great feeling isn't it and finding something you love such a blast. Talk soon
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