You know when you hear a woman go, "Oh, if I eat that, it will go straight to my hips,".... (or thighs), does this actually mean this is the first place eating a 'bad' food will go for this woman? I've always wondered that. Does she actually feel those calories creeping onto those places every time she breaks from 'good' eating to having something calorie laden? For me, when I bust out and start eating rubbish again, the first place I feel it is in my stomach. By that I mean, I start to feel a bit bloated and while everything slips up fine over my hips and thighs I can feel the difference in the waistband of my skirt or pants.
Was it always like this for me? I really don't remember. When I was younger I had a classic hourglass figure. Small waist flaring into slim hips and I never had a problem that I remember with my stomach sticking out until I became 'big.' Now everything seems to revolve around how my stomach feels. And I don't mean inside, I mean outwardly. When I whack on a little bit of weight, I immediately feel it all contained around my middle. Being an apple shape sucks (actually being any other shape is hard work too, this I know, but sometimes I feel like a little Buddha.)
I have put on two thirds of a kilo (which is slowly coming off again thankfully - but I honestly seem to have lost a lot of restriction which I will have to address, but that's another post) but I remember when I was a larger girl that a half kilo would have been akin to a gnats bum in noticing the difference in my clothes. Not so now. When Emma and I were having lunch the other day, she mentioned that now she's smaller, she really notices a difference in a kilo or two with her clothes. I guess I count myself in for that too now as it's the first time a measly half kilo has made a difference in the way I feel.
Sure, I've had a few little gains over the 12+ months of losing this weight, but I never noticed any difference in my clothes before. I have to remind myself constantly... OK, I'm up a touch in weight but the clothes I wear fit me several kilos up when I was on the way down to this weight, so a small gain isn't going to make a huge difference. But to me it actually does now.
Perhaps I have found out a little secret. Perhaps if I take ultra-notice of how my clothes fit now I will keep myself in check and never go beyond gaining more than a half kilo or more. I mean, I have a long time to live and sometimes it scares me. What will I be like in 10 years? Will I still be this size? I do know I NEVER want to be big again, but will I slack off over the coming years, grow comfortable and let myself go again? I would like to think I would never do it - and right here, right now, I would have to say no I won't. But you never know whats around the corner and how things change. It's something to really think about.
Cara xx
The beginning of fatherhood
4 months ago
This scares me, I spend so many moments of my day thinking about goal, goal, goal, what happens when you reach goal??
ReplyDeleteI have said I do not want to spend the rest of my life overweight, but do we really want to spend the rest of our lives in fear that we will become fat again, this is no way to live either -- uhhh , it seems like the journey may never be over
Hmmm, interesting. I guess that at 75 kilos a kilo is a larger percentage of total body weight than an extra kilo at 115 kilos, so the difference is bigger, if that makes sense. I know that it seems to work the other way and lots of successful bandsters have said that people have noticed their last few kilos more than the first 20 kilos lost.
ReplyDeleteyup...but what good reason to wear clothes that are body skimming. Keep that darned evil weight off for good!
ReplyDeleteThe band won't let you slip back into gaining too much weight. I too look at how my clothes feel. Somedays, I must be bloated or something because they are rather uncomfortable, yet the weight is the same as when I wore them before. I am an apple and my stomach bloats up when I eat too many carbs. I think my liver just loves the sugar and swells too. But most days now, I can actually suck in my stomach. You're doing great. Now it is getting used to the new thinner you.
ReplyDeleteI don't think you'll ever return to those days Cara, because the band will not let you binge. When it "creeps on", it's taken a while to get there, and you will have pulled yourself up short long before then. Lovely to see how you're enjoying being slim.
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I hate the bit obve my belly button since i have had kids and find it is the fastest ans lsowest to go down...does that make sense....??? great results earlier on but still hanging around now...I am having issues with my band and not eating great either so that questions pops around my head tooo
ReplyDeleteI believe that in 10 years time you will be where you want to be. You have done so well and are such an inspiration to all of us. <3
ReplyDeleteI hear you Cara, I mean I know I am gaining weight right now because of a good thing but I swear 3 lbs and I can tell the difference. I think I am coming to understand how "normal" people freak out when they gain 10lbs or have 10 lbs to loose. Before I would be like 10lbs are you kidding me? Now I do understand ,the smaller you are a few pounds make a huge difference
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