Some thoughts for the day

Time's finally getting closer for me to go see the surgeon... whoohooo!! Only 13 more sleeps. I have had a busy few days. No secret the kids are on school holidays, and I have to admit its much MUCH easier now they are older. They seem to be able to occupy themselves much better than in years past. 

We had a lovely day yesterday. The sun was shining, it was about 25 degrees and well...... it was blissful. Here in Perth, we are having a magical Autumn. Did some heavy gardening work with MOTH, which entailed digging out tons of that darn creepy grass, the one with runners, and trying to clear the front garden bed of snails and excess dirt which we had made into a heap then planted all these lovely trees and plants into. Bad idea! The poor garden bed is sadly neglected. But now its on its way to a facelift. Happy plants should sprout a few new colourful flowers come spring. How cool is that.

Then we took the kids to the beach, walked, swam, had icecream. Lovely, lovely and more lovely.

Which brings me ... well, to me. I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. About this whole lapband bizzo. I still want it, badly, and now the thought is implanted in my head, I seem to be running full tilt with it. Everything that goes into my mouth, I'm now thinking about. Im churning good and bad habits through my mind constantly. I compiled a list and while I'm sure its not everything, its a good start. 

(I'll start with the good lol)

Good: I love my fruit (and some vegetables)  - I can eat these till they comes out my ears.

           I'm not one of those people that goes to the pantry or fridge and just stand there 

           wondering, what can I pick at? (Could be thats the product of having four sons... there's

           never much in there due to the fact that if its not nailed down its up for grabs!!)

           I rarely drink carbonated drinks (and this is also belongs in the bad list but when I do have            one, I love it.

           I dont drink much so there should be little withdrawal from alcohol... but again, when I 

           have one, I REALLY enjoy it. 

           I chew sugar free gum.... which has upped a lot since I kicked the cigs. But I figure 

            it might help when there comes a time I'm only on liquids or mushies. Here's hoping! 

           I'm not a snacker. Not sure why that is. I think for me, I choose the wrong kinds of foods  

           and when I eat, I do it in a hurry - a lot of the time without thinking about it (something 

           thats going to have to change when I get the band in) and I also dont control portion size.   

            (oops, on 2nd thoughts, this belongs in the bad list too..)

Bad:   I eat what I want, when I want without constraint.

           I just realised, but only through reading as I hadnt given it much thought before now that

           while I dont often drink with my meals, there is one time I do. Breakfast. I love to have a             coffee first thing with my breakfast. That might be a little hard to break. But doable. 

           Also, I am addicted to coffee chills - bad, bad fat laden drinks that I must stop drinking!!  

           Last but not least (and this for me is the biggie) is that Im a lazy cook. I have never EVER            enjoyed cooking.. probably due to the fact it conjures up memories of me standing in the 

           kitchen while trying to sort something for dinner, while having a baby wailing in the  

           background and a toddler demanding attention at the same time. It seems like I did that                forever!!!!!. Now I make meals that I can sort in about 20-25  minutes and under.                          Snatch and grab. Quick and easy!! This is what I do. Probably not 

           good to keep making packet meals or just plain steak or chicken or mince dishes with 

           salad or veggies. Will have to think that one out. 

All in all, I guess what I'm trying to get across is, this is a good thing. All this pondering. I'm thinking about my food again and all before I even have the band in. This has to be good sign. Yeah, this is definetely good! 

P.s. I finally put weight on due to lack of cigarettes. Sigh ....... jumped on the scales and I'm up a kilo. EEK! Will have to watch that methinks. 

Till next time x