Another thing......
This whole giving up the cigs thing - and the reference to my heading above - is that I jumped the gun.... again. Oh, Im still off them, 19 days and counting - only yesterday I stepped down to the lesser nictoine patch- a week earlier than is recommended, me rushing again argh!!!! - going from a 24 hour one (I dont know why I bought those to begin with, I was taking the patch off when I slept) to a 16 hour one. Felt fan-bloody-tastic all day.... remember thinking, WOW, this is actually not so bad, a walk in the park, then 9pm hit. This isnt about food, Im not a night time nibbler which I guess is lucky for me, but more the fact I was restless. So restless I got up from the couch - where MOTH was shooting me venomous looks because I wouldnt sit still - and roamed around the lounge-room, on the move for an hour or so as I watched the rest of the movie. I COULD NOT sit still.
Today has been yuck too. I thought I was doing fab giving up these damn cigarettes but I feel like I'm back to where I was a few weeks ago when I first gave up. Obviously its the lack of nicotine but OMFG! I hate this! I really do. Ive given up something i LOVE doing. I will repeat a mantra in the form of : remind yourself why you decided to stop smoking in the first place... and there were many reasons. Today Im going hour by hour (but... shit shit shit!)
On the foodie front I did an experiement yesterday. I wanted to see if I could go a day on liquids. Now bare in mind the liquids I had were not at all low fat. In fact, what I was drinking was my one downfall. Coffee Chills. I have at least one a day (and I wonder why I'm overweight.. sheesh) but I would rather go without food than my favorite drink. Weird, I know.
So yesterday, I bought (and this is extremely hard to admit - wont the nutrionist have a field day with me!) three of them.. but not just the normal sized ones, I got the new 600 ml bonus pack!!!
So I sat and I drank these all day. They are filling, not surprising I wasnt hungry. Dinner time came and I thought, wow no solids all day (Never mind Ive just put copious amounts of fat into myself - oh well, at least my bones will be strong) I ate a small amount of dinner and that was that for the day. No grazing, no dessert... all was good. Of course this was only one day and I did eat a meal at the end. But this whole week long liquid thing has been bothering me. I wondered if I could do it. I guess I will have to do it properly to find out. But it was an interesting test just the same.
Chow for now. Till we meet again.
Cara, I am going to be bold and suggest some things for you to ponder. The lapband will not be fast so you should settle in before you start. The weight will drop fast at first but then you will need patience. It seems you may be like me, compulsive to get things done and see results. Also, try drinking healthy liquids for a day rather than what you like. You will be OK but I had to give up diet coke and I truly was addicted to carbonation before the band. I applaud you for trying to give up cigs! That is really hard but so good for you. Don't doubt the band will work as a tool for you but work on being patient with yourself. We all got anxious.
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ReplyDeleteI know you're right. I DO need to slow down. I seem to live my life going 100 miles an hour all day every day, and this is part of the problem. Something for me to work on :)
OMG!! I hear you on the smoke thing!! I am trying to convince myself to have another go at the patches....maybe tomorrow:)
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