It's 6am here and I'm whipping out a post before I head off to work. Life in this house is hectic at the best of times and now it's gotten even more so. Kids are on school hols and both mum and dad are working OUT of the house. Life if fully of tricky minefields. When does it begin to slow down?
I wrote in my last post how I thought I might need a tweak of this band. I think now I was talking out of my ass - again! Once I broke the hold of the bad eating cycle I was falling into and got things back into the groove eating the way I should, I proved to myself a couple of things. One - that while I like the thought of getting that little bit more fill in I'm not sure it's warranted right now like I thought it was and two - the reason being, now I'm behaving myself and eating the way I should be my band is again doing it's work.
I find once I start eating high protein dishes again I fill up much faster. Well, doh I say to myself. Haven't we been told this again and again? I think I'm battling the age old internal warfare: what I want to eat versus what I should eat. I have been closely monitoring myself and find yes, I am still a bit hungrier than I should be. I do get quite peckish complete with tummy rumbles in the morning but my band is not letting me eat. It's really tight a.m. Then from lunch time on is when the fun starts. I can eat most things right now - toast, pasta, rice etc (which is actually not a problem because I was one of the lucky ones who found these foods didn't need to come off the menu even when I was at the sweet spot) but on the flip side, I am struggling to keep things down.
The day I decided to start from scratch and obey each and every band rule I struggled - big time. Every single damn thing I got down ended up with me sliming. Ack! Okay, I say to myself. You're eating too fast. So I slow down and it still results in the same thing. So what to do? Cut those portions down even further and eat even slower. That does seem to help. So that's where I'm at right now. Small and slow. Sounds like your average garden snail. Hmm.
Something else also. I knew there was a reason I wanted to start maintaining my weight from now on. Through behaving myself these past few days I have suddenly found myself almost a kilo lighter. WTF?? Which means that I have under a kilo (around 2 pounds) left before I hit my original set goal of 40 kilos weight loss overall. But you had stopped wanting to lose more weight I hear you say. That's right, I did and I was sticking to it. But it seems my body has other ideas. When I looked down at my legs this morning - that extra kilo coming off my body has suddenly wrought a change. I have the potential for saggy knee syndrome! Holy crap! I see it there - just the slight change has had an effect. I will have to be careful. Being a woman of my age (even given my lucky break in having my mothers great skin genes) I have the potential to look gaunt and now the tops of my knees just above the kneecap is looking slightly weird. And I don't want that. No way. So now I have to figure out how to actually keep my weight steady. Does this daily internal/external battle ever end?
Cara xx
The beginning of fatherhood
4 months ago
I soooo understand what you are saying!
ReplyDeleteI've been eating like there is no tomorrow. But when I look at it - it's pretty much all sliders. I am quite tight - I just need to work the band.
*sigh*
lol - I think we need a picky of the knees!
I think you are doing great. Just like when we were losing weight, the scale bounced up and down, so it will also when we try to stabilize. I too am trying to get in more protein but it is hard. Hoping you find that perfect balance. I've been discovering the elephant butt that Jen talked about. Oh well, lets balance this thought. Fat and taught or thin and droopy. You choose. I pick the later.
ReplyDeleteOh Cara.. how lucky and fortunate you are to be at maintenance.. We know that you have had to work the band, but it is so reassuring that if you stick to those stinkin rules, you will be successful. Have a great day.. and try to slow down just a bit
ReplyDeleteThis is exactly why I thought I needed a fill! I need to remember that this band will work if I don't eat sliders...hmm :)
ReplyDeleteGood reminder that if we do what we are supposed to, we can be successful with the band just like YOU! Saggy knees or not - you are awesome.
ReplyDeleteIm so intruiged as to what you eat!? im so confused about this high protein diet.
ReplyDeleteMy surgeon was semi evil and said i should only eat the following for the next 6 months-
Tuna
Fish- chicken Thighs
Egg
Salad
Vegies
OPtifast (if needed)
thats about it..... wow is it struggle town... im on solids now but to scared to step out... any receipes you recommend Cara would be great!
Yay to the kilo down by the way :D
So maybe you can eventually get a little tweak of an unfill?
ReplyDeleteWith this tight thing I have just now I am hoping to get one eventually.
Cara, I am getting very close to the maintenance stage myself. I will be reading your posts closely for tips. As Gen once said, I want to stay on the juicy side of normal. At our age, too skinny usually has unpleasant effects :)
ReplyDeleteWow Cara, you've done remarkably well! Maybe you need a little unfil for maintenance? I don't know, but I'm anxious to see this part of your journey, I've learned so much from you!
ReplyDeleteBatwings, elephant butt, now saggy knee syndrome??? It never ends the things we worry about! :)There was a lady on a talk show today who had lost a lot of weight. She said she used to be a 44DD and now was a 34 long. :)
ReplyDeleteI think I will just wear loose kimonos and not worry about anything. :)
Sounds like you are working the band. That is good for newbies like me to learn; that it is an ongoing process.
BTW, LOVED your purple boots in your last post. :) Happy Weekend!
OMG I am a total candidate for saggy knee syndrome (if I ever lose any more weight I mean)...My knees have been fat since I was a kid!
ReplyDeleteWe 40 somethings have to be careful about not losing too much...I do think some women look better with a few extra pounds at our age.