We got up, sorted the kids to school and proceeded to mope around the house, glaring evilly at the bathroom walls of our ensuite that we knew needed painting but neither of us felt like touching. We farted around the house for about an hour or two - wiling away time talking about Tassie over copious amounts of coffee. Then we bogged in and finally got the job done. The bathroom is almost finished now. We just to have to replace the light and put back together the loo cistern etc that we pulled apart to clean within an inch of their life, plus sort some other little odds and sods (like fixing the shower curtain back on) and we are done.
I think some of my blah came from the fact we went to the airport to see Mitch off yesterday (and MOTH's too, now I think about it). Everything went as planned and we went up as a convoy with Tom and his family, meeting there to hang while we had coffee and chatted until it was time for them to go. Tears all round - Tom is leaving his girlfriend of around a year to shoot off for three months with Mitch - so my heart ached for them both too. But we got through it as you do.
Another part of my blahhhh's has come from losing focus. MOTH took the two younger kids down to the farm and I - for some reason - left to my own devices totally blew 500,000 (figuratively speaking.. I didn't count) calories down my throat. What was with that? He's left me before for a night away with the kids and I haven't swayed and yet...... boy, did I go to town. I had zero self-control and over two days just ate bad bad bad. So today after working on the bathroom I dragged MOTH out for a walk to the beach. We live about a km from one of the nicest beaches around and I'm glad we made the effort. I said if we could put aside 45 minutes each day to do this, we would be skinny in no time (well, me not him... he's doing OK being a tall guy and all that.. carries a little weight no problem.) I feel more positive this afternoon after being more in control of my food (I've done much better... followed all the rules etc. and with the walk and almost 2 litres of water down the hatch I now look forward to tomorrow knowing I will do the same.)
I tell you what I would like though, girls. Is there some tip on how you continue to lose this weight? I look at Amy W, Mary and Catherine and quite a few others and you girls are just powerhouses. You plug on losing .. but me, I seem to be flagging big time. I don't know if its the fact I've just slowed right down with the weight loss or if I'm doing something completely wrong with the big picture but I am struggling to lose this last kilo to get to 20 kilos lost. It worries me if I can't blow off this last one to make it half way, how the heck am I going to tackle the last 20?
I rang Dr Couch's office this morning to ask to be bought forward to get my next fill. I have found out the hard way that I cannot eat chicken unless it's in a sauce and I have to eat slow and chew well. But as far as portions go, if I didn't stick to the one cup (or a little more) I just know I could eat way more. And I don't want to. I'm struggling as it is. Anyway, I took Amy W's advice (thanks hon!!) rang and spoke to one of the woman behind the desk... and while I was there, I explained because I was leaving for Tasmania for 12 days after only 6 days from my next fill, I wanted to go in next week to give it more time incase there was a problem.
She blithely informs me that 1. No he doesn't have anything free until after my already booked appointment AND 2. that Dr Couch will either do one of two things. Not put any more in because I'm travelling away from home OR take the fill out altogether. I think my response was.. "Hell no!!" It's not like I'm travelling to some third world country or anything - it's Australia FFS, albeit a little island south-east of where I am now. So I will be fighting that one. I only want a half. That should help with the portions and hopefully not change the restriction too much. Do you agree??
'Kay I'm off. It's been a weird kind of day and I am off to start the night rituals of cooking dinner and making lunches for the kids tomorrow. Hope you all had a good weekend.
Speak soon
Cara xx
Cara- what a hard weekend! I'm with you on the food front - I ate some bad things that shouldn't have come in the house. Have started to get a little stuck on things when I eat too fast, but still get hungry between meals and could eat more... I feel like we both must be so close to the sweet spot.Hang in there lovely.
ReplyDeleteHopefully there weren't too many tears at the airport...3 months will go so fast, and imagine the changes he will see in you when he returns.
ReplyDeleteAs far as the weight goes it sounds like you have hit a plateau...change it up. I found last time I lost weight (close to that 20kg's) I found it so hard and well ended up going backwards, because I gave in...but times have changed and I that won't happen again.
Just keep at it and don't get disheartened..it will move....
Ugh, those days are just a bummer. But at least you and MOTH accomplished some painting, got to have a nescafe moment and a walk on the beach :-)
ReplyDeleteStill, some days it feels like you're trudging through molasses.
That's really irritating that the Dr.'s office won't play ball, even just a little, but this stall is definitely temporary. Once you get that fill you'll move past this and it will be ancient history. I just know it!
Cara,
ReplyDeleteI feel your pain with the remodeling. I have a big load of crap to unload already with the girls leaving the house. I've given them 30 days to come and get what they can't live without, then I get to do whatever I want with it. I sorted through some things in my new 'office' spare room and need to make space for our 2nd bed! I have the whole week off and I'm trying to take things slow, but there are a lot of big jobs ahead. I think you should mix it up too, try eating more calories one day and then back it down some the next. Your body is just used to the standard, and is stubbornly holding fast! You'll be moving again in no time. hugs, k