Help! I'm in danger - fill time needed.

The cartoon above pretty much sums up my daily life at the moment. I am craving all sorts of shmuskie comfort foods but instead are having to monitor myself closely. This restriction I have see-sawed over the past few weeks has definitely slackened off. I am able to eat all sorts of no-no's now - and the thing is.. I don't want to!! So when my appt. with my new doc comes up in just over week, I am so getting another fill. Maybe just .5 of a mill I think. My biggest fear is being overfilled - it causes all sorts of hassles - not the least trying to track down said doctor to undo it again. 


I wonder why this happens? This need to stuff our faces at certain times when other times we coast along quite happily with just the minimum of food? Is it a mental thing? Hormonal? Here's an example of how my brain farts are taking control right now.  I don't MIND Anzac biscuits and usually  wouldn't seek them out.. but put them in the microwave for a few seconds so they get pliable and warm and sticky and OMG I can gorge myself silly....so of course, what did I do? I did exactly that and down went a half dozen or so. Pfft.Thanks Jake for showing me that one lol.  Dip is another enemy of mine. Before banded I was never a savory lover. I went sweet every time. All of a sudden my taste-buds are changing. I don't even like raw capsicum - I think you guys call them peppers - but there is this small tub of red pepper, cashews and parmeson dip that I cannot keep my hands off. I could polish the whole lot off in one sitting and still have room for more. 


Last night I stuck with a light dinner. I made scrambled eggs for the three of us. (MOTH whisked Mason and Mitch off down south for a few days leaving just Jake and Riley home with me - and oh, in case anyone is wondering how come MOTH has so much time off - he does contracting work - fly in, fly out leaving him with weeks at a time of days off) I did up a plate of that, added a slice of wholegrain toast underneath with a little bit of deli meat on the side and as Riley sat down next to me with his plate, he  took one look at my serving and went, "You can't eat all that!" Not wont be able to but cant. Figures I would get sprung when not thinking I put my food on a normal sized plate for the first time since banded. I answered, "I probably won't eat it all," and luckily I didn't or couldn't (I was listening closely to my 'don't eat so you overfill or you will PB signal') but let me tell you, I could have eaten the whole lot. Luckily I had that devil on my shoulder (Riley) who was watching me like a hawk (do I have precocious kids or what???) If a nine year old can both notice and point out that I have suddenly started serving too much up, then I am in trouble lol. I need that fill!!


I hope you guys are all doing well. All is good here on the West side of Oz, though don't know whats going on with the bizarre weather. We have had three days of solid rain and thunderstorms. In November!!! Very, very odd. Feels strange walking around in jeans and jumpers again. 


Till next time
Cara xx
PS Thank you all so much for your fantastic comments on my new dress. It got quite a reaction. When I'm all dolled up next time and wearing it, I promise I will take a pic. I will have to make sure I eat lightly that day lol the material is quite unforgiving for bumps and lumps and especially tummy's that stick out due to overeating.