A calm has descended.......with only two days to go

First up, I have a small confession to make. I told a porkie on this blog. It was accidental, but I did it none the less. For the last several posts I meant to correct it and then I would forget... I had written somewhere alone the line I had lost 7.3 kilos when in fact I had only lost 6.8 (had anyone noticed this.. probably not, but I just wanted to correct it anyway) I had counted backward instead of forward and arrived at this number and I ran with it, only to realise days later I had stuffed up. So... it hardly matters anyway now cos as of today... 8.3 kilos down!!! And this is real lol. 

MOTH seems in MUCH better spirits today and this is rubbing off on all of us here. I am focussed again on my op due this Friday... not so much nervous (ok, maybe a touch) and excited. One thing.. can anyone advise me what I have to take for my overnight stay? I read about this in a few blogs when I first started researching but for the life of me, do you think I can find them again? I know I need my lip balm, my mp3 and reading material, a nightie and dressing gown and slippers, a change of clothes for the next day, toothbrush etc.. oh, and I'm taking my own pillow. I hate hospital pillows, they are too high and firm. Have I left anything out? 

I was standing talking to MOTH while he had his shower this morning - many a great conversation has been had this way with either him standing and yakking while I wash my hair or vice versa - and I mentioned that the weight I am now.. 105 kilos was the weight I reached on my last diet. I remember I felt unreal:  lighter, healthier etc but as I have a tendancy to do, I got bored and went off it. Lite and Easy was great.. it really was, BUT the food after six or seven weeks of doing the program tends to get repetative. So I finished with it, and as usual, BANG!!! the weight crept back on.. right back to where I started - and yet not above - not sure why that happens lol. So our conversation was mostly about (with me doing most of the talking as usual as as he patiently listened lol) how THIS time, I will not be going backward because THIS time I am not stopping this eating plan. It's really, really exciting!! I can't wait for the following months - liquids, mushies etc.. bring it on! 

Can anyone also tell me something? I have lost some weight.. I feel way better than I did before I started, I can feel it in my clothes and I look WAYYYYY better in the mirror and YET.... when I get a photo taken, well, I still look like crap (I think so anyway) I know a T.V camera is supposed to add 10 pounds but is it the same for a normal camera? How can we have a perception of what we look like in the mirror, then take a picture and it comes crashing down lol. Just a thought. 

Today MOTH is taking me to lunch. I have see-sawed about this off and on for the past few days. Do I want to go, should I not.. yes I will, no I wont and bugger it.. I'm doing it. I will stick to healthy food and just enjoy having an hour or so of his time to myself where we can just talk and have a laugh (something we have been lacking lately).  I figure with such a great loss on the optifast, my liver wont explode with one meal and I had my opti first up this morning, will have it again for dinner and stick to the plan again tomorrow before D-Day. Whoooo, my tummy has butterflies as I write this. 

I remember mentioning in my first post that I had never written a blog before. I had never even read one actually. But now.. well, I love them. I want to thank all the girls that have been with me since I first started and want to tell them how much their messages mean to me. IYou're the best.

So mwah from me... I will try and pop in tomorrow (cos I have to be at the hospital by 7.30 am Friday and there will be no time then) and post a quickie.

From me to you

Cara xxx