Have you ever looked at a gravestone? On it you will find the date a person was born - and the date that person died. In between is a dash. This small symbol signifies a persons whole existence. When it comes time for my dash to be chipped in, I want to know I lived a full and wondrous life.
A slight meltdown... also known as a brain fart!!
Ok,
ok, before you girls read my earlier blog and either go "This woman is a TOTAL fruitcake" OR you say, "What the hell is she asking? I can't tell her whether or not getting a band is the right decision for her!!!" I get that. When I wrote this morning, that was how I was feeling. But with some hindsight (and several hours later under my belt) I think I was suffering the equivalent of a total and utter brain fart!! Nothing more, nothing less.
As I sit here, again calm and collected I realise that what I am about to do is a damn good thing....that and the fact I caught my reflection side on when I was at the school dentist with the kids which unequivocally told me to get my shit together and just do it, 'cos this weight loss isn't going to magically happen on it's own!! Doesn't matter if its an day, week, month or year, I will adjust and cope like I always do.
Think that about covers it.. oh, and thanks for reading xx
Cara
Chin up... I've sent you an email!
ReplyDeleteI can honestly say that having the band was the best decision I made. I made it for me!
:o)
xx
:-) may not be the last time you have doubts - like with anything you will have your good days and bad.........good luck thanks for reading my blog
ReplyDeleteI second Dawn! Sometimes things get tough, but getting banded was the BEST thing I could have done for myself.
ReplyDeleteI wish you the very best and look forward to hearing about your experience. :)
I considered jumping off the trolley on the way around to theatre screaming it had all been a terrible mistake and I had changed my mind!!
ReplyDeleteEven after the operation in the first week I had a couple of wobblies thinking about the "thing" I had inside me.
We all have these thoughts.....and we all struggle from time to time. But, hell.....there are far, far more positives than negatives and that is what I try to concentrate on:)
You girls.. sigh.. what would I do without your great advice. I have woken in a fantastic state of mind this morning, and am raring to go, even feeling excitement at the possibilities looming on the horizon. So its all good :) Feel calm, and collected and much more like myself. Who knew! lol
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