Feeling the blahhhh's

I think the post heading says it all! It's a beautiful day outside, cool yet sunny and MOTH and I have kicked butt cleaning out the enormous shed he had built a year or so ago that's attached to the house and cleaned the spare room out for when his mum comes to stay next week before she jets off to Germany. All in all, a fruitful day. So why do I feel like this?

Probably because we are not socialising or just doing anything much. I honestly feel we are just existing lately (and this has been happening for months, not just recently)  MOTH is having trouble being on his feet for more than an hour at a time before he collapses back on the couch to watch yet another video because there's really not much else he can do. We are both doing optifast right now, so we are not out and about where there are temptations and it TTOTM for me.. all in all a pretty crap feeling. 

I was also having a good hard look at my body the other day. When you're just chugging along day to day, you really don't stop and look.. it's just there, you dress, you run out the door and that's that. When you are losing weight, suddenly you see changes. Great changes. I can really tell I've dropped almost 8 kilos. My jeans are not cutting into me any more and I have to keep hitching them up...(can't wait till I ditch them cos they are hanging down around my ankles), a purple top I wouldn't wear a few weeks ago because it just looked tight and yuck, now fits like a dream and when I look side on... I am a lot more streamlined. That's the good stuff. 

The bad is when you lose weight, suddenly you see all the other stuff that needs changing. I liken it to when you start working on the house. You fix something, then suddenly you see the ceiling needs painting, then you notice the front door is a bit old and could do with a tweak, and the bathroom needs an overhaul. That kind of thing. Our bods are the same. Well, mine is anyway. Suddenly I notice I have a few little spider veins on my thighs up top (I could actually swing round comfortably this morning and was doing an examination lol), my chin isn't as firm as it once was, my largish breasts need hoiking up and my stomach after four kids, well, it just doesn't cut it in the flatness stakes. 

I guess as I go along in the coming months these are all things that can be fixed. I will invest in some sexy bras (and not the plain black ones I have been living in for the past few years), I will buy some sexy undies (again, not black!!) and just start picking away at the bits of my body that I don't much like. Lucky I'm not too fussy. I'm a realist. At 43 with four kids under my belt, it's not the same as it was at 20, and that's OK. Although I've been overweight for a good portion of my adult life, nothing here is unfixable. I will go get my puffy eyes seen to (I'm not scared of going under the knife) and I will maybe even think about a tummy tuck in the years to come.) All exciting stuff as far as I'm concerned. 

Just a footnote. That tooth that was bugging me.. the one with the abscess. I managed to save it. I really couldn't stand the thought of having it out 'cos then, in my eyes, I would look like some snaggletoothed middle aged woman. And lets face it. I have a lot of fixing to do on other parts without adding my teeth to it!

Till next time

Cara xx