Feet back on the ground

Well, it's taken me two days to come out of this funk - and what a funk it was. Somehow it felt a bit like the old days, those days when I was down on myself and would berate myself for all my failings, the kind that put me in a situation where I could easily see all that was supposedly wrong in my life. But you know what, with all the wonderful comments I got (and I read them all back to front and sideways, taking notes and taking heart) it made me think: why am I so down? I don't actually have a lot wrong in my life and have a lot more to be thankful for than some people. I DO have a wonderfully supportive husband who is always there for me with a hug and kind words, who props me up when I most need him (and gets it back in return) and kids that just flat out love me and get that back in spades, too. I have great friends, a lovely home and a wonderful home life. Right now I can see all this clearly - a few days ago - not a chance of recognising it. So as of this moment: I refuse to let the dark side in and I will not dwell on the bleaker side of things instead focusing on whats good and true. My husband and boys. Thank you for all your support and 'surrogate sister(ery)' ... I owe this saying to Catherine... I think you guys rock!! 

Not much to report on the band front. I have been a bad bander with all the food I've been taking in. I resisted eating crap that first day and went to town on the 2nd. My resistance was low and I have eaten a bit of everything bad (mind you, not like the old days - because thankfully my band won't let me.) That said: no weight loss for me again this week. It's not Tuesday yet (my weigh in day) but I jumped on the scales this morning and I'm a couple of hundred grams up. Not much in the whole scheme of things and I know myself: I could drop that in a night. So if I behave myself the next few days I might get a marginal drop. I need to kick this weight loss in the pants again and stop stuffing around. I've done hardly any exercise and I am a bit sick of 'being good' all the time. Funs over though and it's time to get back on track. It's my birthday in a few weeks and I want to hit those 80's before I turn 44. Holy hell!!! Did I just say 44? I cannot believe that I'm almost in my mid-40's. Unbelievable. Anyway, I'm tossing up whether to ask for new clothes (I really need them!! I only have one useable pair of jeans and a couple of black pairs of pants and  quite a few tops to go with them..but  I just need more) - or do I go for this gorgeous bag Ramona posted on her site a few days ago. I have always wanted a Burberry handbag and she put some pics up there that were to just die for. Decisions, decisions.

                                                       Burberry nova check - large tote bag


This is a knock-off and the real thing is a pinkish colour instead of cream but at almost $500 dollars, I don't think I could afford that much for just one bag.... though I once spent almost that much on a pair of sunnies. This is the one I'm eying off, and at around $175 it's still not cheap. I do love it though.


I hope you are all well and coping well with your own bands. I am thinking of you all and wishing good things for you.


Have a lovely Sunday
See you soon
Cara xx