A small smash weight-loss wise and some old pics

Man, I'm so sick of hovering around this same number. 91.7 kilos. I just can't seem to push it below. I went up a touch (I dare say all that crap eating) but have since lost it again - around 300 grams (not even half a kilo.. sigh.)  I have been so good with my food but the down side is, is that I have noticed I can eat SO MUCH MORE!!! and am getting hungrier quicker... it really sucks. I am sticking to my portion sizes like glue but by God I could eat double the amount if I let myself. 


On the good news front I rang Dr Couch's office at 8.30am on the dot this morning and caught the 'nice receptionist' - you know the one.... she's the one that's helpful and will always find an earlier appointment time because she can hear the panic in your voice about needing another fill earlier than you were booked.. as opposed to the other one who just says: nope, nothing here for the next week or so, you'll just have to come in on your scheduled day! Pah.. can't say I like that one too much. Anyway, good news is, I am now going in at 11.30am tomorrow for my fill. That's two weeks earlier than the Doc told me to come back and almost a week earlier than my original appt. I so need this!! 


This weekend MOTH (Man of the House) and I are having old friends over this weekend. Rose-Marie is one of the most beautiful girls on the planet - her personality is just amazing and she's always laughing and upbeat. Her husband is also the best, someone who seems to compliment her perfectly. I have known Rose since I was about five years old (and Mark since I was 20) and though we don't see each other half as much as we would like.. every six months or so we have this big get-together and tie one on. Well, this time that won't be happening (cause this little black duck gets drunk SO easily now.. even more than before) and if it's not the lack of drinking that does it: it will probably be that she sees my weight loss. Now comes the question. What to tell her? I have thought about it and it's not a hard question to answer. She's one of the few people I will tell up front about my band. One: because, well, I have known her like forever and she's bound to notice how differently I'm eating and Two: because I want to help her. She like me, has been a big girl for a long time and I see her on diets all the time. Maybe if I tell her about the band it might be something she would consider, too. I guess we will see. Will let you know how that one goes. 


I have put some pictures up of myself through the years. I have loads more but have to scan them in.. but these are the ones that are already done. You'll see a definite point when I started to gain weight. 

                                            Me at about 2 years of age - still have my love of cats

                                                

                           About 14 years old here - with my horse Almond and her foal Star - peeking out from under her nose 

Sweden  - I was 21 

MOTH's 21st Birthday - A shot with his family - Hokie Pig-on-a- Spit and all. Had to include this because I love this shot.  He's on the far right in the red and white (Where's Wally ) like jumper

MOTH and I with my oldest son Mitch - I was about 25 here (check out MOTH's huge glasses lol)

 MOTH and I again - 27 years old (MOTH is 26 lol)

My sisters wedding - I am the one standing next to her on the right - to the left of the flower girl - 29 years old here and boy, did I diet hard to get into that satin dress

My father and I -  I'm around 30 years old and starting to put it on - and never looked back 

 Rose and I on my 40th birthday.

I will let you know how it goes with the fill tomorrow - as for now I will just battle on until that sweet fill day. 

Adios

Cara xx