Weight mind games.........

So, I never lost any weight the first week home from holidays - but I'm not really surprised. I didn't deserve to because I hadn't been that good. Then surprisingly - or not - I get on the scales yesterday and find I'm up a kilo and a half (that's about 3.3. pounds.. sheesh) but instead of wailing like a banshee, I'm not terribly worried because that time of the month is upon me again. A nice fat pimple right next to my mouth is a dead giveaway (which is both good and bad: good because I NEVER remember the actual date I am supposed to start lol but bad because well, it's like a neon sign.. look she has her period!!! Blahhhhhhhh)

Anyway, it's a fat day for me. I woke this morning feeling yuck and bloated but  thought, what the heck, I will jump on the numbers of doom  to see where I'm at anyway and...... yay..... I'm actually down a half a kilo from my original weight at the beginning of the week.. so I lost 2 kilos overnight..... Niiiiiiice... I guess that came about because for the past few days I just haven't been eating much. I thought I might have been wrong in regards to not getting that fill. After what happened in Tasmania where I had a couple of really horrible PB episodes I was wary of getting more in. Then typically, I get home and things are 'normal' again and now I am worried that I am eating too much and eating too fast. But as usual I think my mind is playing tricks on me. I was just not listening to my body. I am still able to easily get through to 11 am or noon without eating my first meal. I'm just not that hungry before then. So I eat a bowl of grain-like cereal with dried fruit (usually Just Right) and I throw a banana on top (to add to my fruit count) then I might not eat again until 3 or 4pm. This seems to do me just fine.

The listening to my body part comes in the way that yesterday while eating my cereal I was just shovelling it in while reading (see.. I can eat fast again.. argh) and then suddenly went.. I think I'm full. Yet I was only three quarters the way through my small bandit bowl. I put it aside and then lost interest in it. About ten minutes later I feel really, really full: just like I had eaten a pre-band large meal with dessert. Trouble is with this scenario.. with not eating so much food during the day I'm actually struggling to A. Get all my calories in so my body doesn't stall all together and B. Find the right types of food to eat so I get a good range. The listening when full bit is good though. I really needed to start paying attention again because I've noticed I've become slack. I eat too fast, I sometimes eat too much at one sitting and I am also (sometimes) not paying attention to what goes in my mouth. If I can reverse these things.. I might be onto something again... a better weight loss. So this is my plan for the week: to fix those things I just wrote about and see if it makes a difference.

It's been a strange week in another way also. As I wrote about in a previous post, MOTH (Man of the House) picked up No. 3 and No. 4 son and whisked them off to our property down south for a few days. Thing is he loves it SO much, three days turned into five and now he's not due back until tomorrow. He just loves pottering around, chainsawing downed trees into small pieces for the fire (from the storm down there months ago) and just generally cleaning up. He's in his element. I was like.. YES!!!!! Whoooo... a quiet house with just one sixteen year old to look after. Well, Chuck me Farley.... it never quite works out that way. Mason has had so many friends over.. and quite a few nights with some sleeping over.. I've never really been on my own. Then of course there's running him around. He's learning his road rules from the book so he can take the first step in getting his licence but until he gets it .. well, "Mums Taxi" is in full flight. I think I've been busier than ever, especially since I decide that since I am on my own for a few days, I really should get into things I might not be able to do with the kids around during the school holidays. Today, Mason and I clear out his room so we can leave it bare for re-painting and moving him into a bigger room that he's swapping with Riley and Jake. We are doing a big room re-shuffle.Mitch moved out of the house into the room out back (a mini-granny flat of sorts) Jake has moved into his now vacated room, Riley will go into Mason's and now Mason scored the largest room of all, the one that Jake and Riley were sharing. Got all that? lol

I was on FB yesterday and the little chat window popped up. It was Mitch. Currently he's in Germany living with MOTH's grandmother and Aunt and Uncle. (Tom's there too!) It was fanastic to hear from him because we knew he had been to the Oktoberfest but no contact had been made. He was having a blast. Just as I was starting to wonder where he was and what he was up to, I hear from him. He's doing great.. in fact (and this made me want to sniffle.. ) he might not be home for Christmas. Oh nooooooo.... He's loving travelling so much (you should see this boy's itinerary.. it would blow your mind.. exhausting or what!!) that he's decided to stay on for a while longer after Tom leaves for home. This includes - probably, yet it might change - a few weeks stay with his aunts and uncles living near Chicago in the US.. and another month back in Germany after all his tours etc finish whereas he stays for Christmas. He wants to see snow. I'm really happy he's happy but that said.. I hope he changes his mind and gets back here for Xmas because our family is spread so far out right now, that's its going to be awful if he's not here too. Our first Christmas without him.. it doesn't bear thinking about.

Think that's it for me today. I am off to round up Mason and start the huge job I just mentioned. Oh, and if you don't see me for a few days it's because I've fallen into a huge, black abyss that is a teenagers room lol. I might actually never be seen again!!!
Chow for now
Cara xx